I have finally realized why I do not have children, nor want children. Other than the fact that I have had no desire to be a mother, I guess my reasons are selfish. I want to be able to go wherever, do whatever, WHENEVER I want without worrying about children. I remember growing up and hearing people say, "well, we sure would love to go but, you know, we've got kids".......and I would think, "that's sad to not be able to go places or do things because you've got kids holding you back." Now granted, I know there are some parents who would not let that get in the way and sometimes I think those other parents used that excuse to get out of something, which is probably true.
A lady from my church made the comment that God knew what He was doing when He didn't give me that "motherly" desire because now I would be a single mom instead of just single. But, as I was telling a couple of guys from work, I NEVER envisioned myself as a mother. I envisioned being married but I wanted my husband and I to grow old together being able to travel whenever the mood struck. You know, wake up one day and just spontaneously say "you know, let's drive down to the beach for the weekend" or "hey, let's go camping for a few days." Spending quality time with each other doing new things, seeing new things. That's what I want. I guess I'll just patiently wait and see what comes along :-)
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
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