I e-mailed my associate pastor, Ryan Limbaugh, and thanked him for speaking with me yesterday morning. I explained to him that this coming July will be one year that I've been divorced and 2 years that I've been separated. For the most part, I do pretty well. But there are days that I tend to have a little pity party for myself. I told him that instead of being thankful for what I have, I tend to complain about what I don't have...OR...what I do have, I tend to nit-pick what's wrong with it. My little house for example. It REALLY needs some work done to it. But I don't have the money to do any upkeep on it. I mean, I do, but it would clean me out if I used my savings account to do the necessary "things" that need to be done. But then, I know some people who have it waaaaaaay worse than I do. And I know there are people who live in much worse than this and probably would LOVE to trade places.
I explained that I get tunnel vision and focus on what's bad instead of focusing on what's good. It's that envy that creeps in every now and then. It's not that I'm selfish. And I'm definitely not materialistic. For the most part, I am content. But when you have to look at the things that need fixing or replacing every day, it gets really discouraging. I hear people say "oh, we've just bought this and that to fix up our house". Well, why is it that I can't do that.....NOW???? I told Bro. Ryan that I believe this is God's lesson in patience to me and right now, I don't have very much of it :-)
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